i love you....MORE

my mom was just here for a visit. there was one night where my daughter wanted her nana to put her to bed...i sat downstairs drinking my tea and overheard a beautiful song. my mom was singing to my daughter. for that moment, i realized the sanctity of motherhood. it is in THESE moments where life truly is. the subtleties of just a song, can ease and nurture in ways i had forgotten to do FOR MYSELF.

my mother and i have had a journey, we all have. but the gift she continues to gift me with is LOVE. she is willing to love...no matter what. which brings me to my playful point.

when we are hurt. when we do not agree. when we are feeling threatened or judged by others, what do we DO?

this is not about submitting or taking "abuse" of any kind- 

what i am asking is ...can we LOVE ...in these times?

when my daughter has said something that was "hurtful" or has acted out or threw a fit because she cannot have her own shopping cart in wholefoods, can i LOVE her more then? 

too often we are taught to withhold love. especially in the times where we may disagree or feel especially vulnerable.

i have learned the past year about my patterns in all relationships and have humbly looked at myself. DEAD ON.

i am a big fan of love

and it is SO SO SO easy to love in the easeful bliss moments,

but what about the messy ones?

can we love then? more importantly can we love ourselves then too? love that maybe we are afraid? afraid to be vulnerable and seen or just simply do not have the tools to say "i have no idea what to say, and you hurt me, however i am going to STAY in this moment with my heart wide open, and LOVE "

because in love- there is no reason to be right. because in love- you SEE the beauty in all people- even IF they are choosing something that may not be "right or good or what you would do, or even downright hurtful"

sometimes it just the LOVE that we feel for them/ourselves that sets US Free.

to play.

i want to love my daughter MORE in the moments when she throws a fit, or disagrees with me..or does things i may not agree with.

love will not be taken from...

only increased

for her, myself and all others...

this is where change begins

this is peace

and of course

PLAY