forGIVE

when i was younger, i always had a soft spot for the underdog- the "geeks or nerds" they were labeled or the ones who never really got a chance to participate. i was blessed to be called on "first" in all gym activities and had numerous friends and things i enjoyed. looking back, i see why i felt such a deep well of empathy for those who were "left out"- in some ways, i was left out too.

our exterior may not always be ALL that we are. most people have always viewed me as outgoing and happy- positive and joyful- which is true. but there have been times in my life where i have felt deep pain, anger, sadness and confusion about how others have treated me. 

what i want to joyfully explore is how we react to life? what we do when we are the underdog or the last ones to be called. we have all been there, but it is how we react to these moments of life that are our greatest teachers.

are we victims to life? is life happening to us, or are we here to learn from our experiences..see what it is teaching us about parts of ourselves?

too often i come across mothers who judge how they mother, or are always feeling inadequate on some level regarding their mothering space.

too often we feel we are just not "enough"- and i would like to dive into another way of seeing ourselves- not only as moms, but as whole beings.

we did not come here with a manual- we came here to learn and discover - 

some things in our lives we may regret or wish we did differently, but they happened in order for us to for GIVE and GIVE back to ourselves in new ways.

one things parenting gives to us is the feeling of unconditional love. no matter WHAT we love our children- i wonder if its possible for us to love ourselves in this way? to hold that nurturing space for forgiveness and love no matter what- 

no matter what our dress size is, or how we looked that day ,felt that day, acted etc.

forgiving is an act of giving out love. to others and ourselves

i wonder what our world would look like if we all took a moment to be more gentler on ourselves. to value that we are all enough- and that life is not meant to be done perfectly. that learning is life...

i wonder what our children would see if we all loved ourselves as much as we love them. provided a space for ourselves to express, feel, fall and get back up- like we for them. what would this demonstrate to them?

i hear more often then not, mothers focusing on what they need to do better. i wonder what playdates would look like if we celebrated ourselves more like we celebrated our children?

with each new "step" we congratulate ourselves for showing up...to the unknown of motherhood.

with grace

and forgiveness....

and humor.

i wonder...